joy. happiness. contentment. meaning. direction. providential moving.

that's how i feel right now.

bet you'd never hear that on this blog.

and maybe in love again too

mmm...love

SuicideGirls > Words > Chuck Palahniuk 2

The Morning News - TiVo.

i have found it very weird that so many people found out about my site going back "up" (whatever the "fuck" that means) so quickly. were they going to look at the same few words printed there every day for over a month? or are they really all using newsreaders? either way, i guess i'm happy.

lowbrow dot com: "So i told this christian girl that i liked, that 'jesus died for your sins.' then she gave me the best head ever, THANK YOU JESUS!"

Open Brackets: "If I am anything to go by, man is a foolish animal." "I am leaving this world in which the heart must either break or else turn to bronze." "The success of many books is due to the affinity between the mediocrity of the author’s ideas and those of the public."

THEY THREW GOD OUT OF THE GARDEN. just in case i want to read this later.

dooce is one of the coolest websites there is. Let's just leave it at that. "Call this website a “diary” or a “journal.” I prefer “piece of self-loathing, self-indulgent, narcissistic crap,” thank you very much."

LarkNews.com: "COMMUNITY: Teen hopes to have sex before Rapture"

CAPS CITY, Fla. -- Kurt Maniotti, 17, a junior at Gilbert Farreah High School, says he's had a wonderful Christian upbringing, and for years has dreamed of his first sexual encounter with his wife on their wedding night. But after his pastor's sermon last week about the second coming of Christ, Maniotti was plunged into anxiety that one day the trumpet will sound and he'll be caught up to meet the Lord in the air — without ever having enjoyed the marriage bed.

"I've been really praying that the Lord would delay His return until I can have sex," Maniotti says, sitting on the edge of his bed, hands clasped nervously. So great is his concern that he's looked into moving to Alabama and Mississippi, where marriage laws are more lenient and he could take a teenage bride. He's also considered marrying a near-stranger, having sex, then having the marriage nullified, but his conscience disallows it. Still, he can't shake the fear of missing what he regards as "probably the highest form of earthly pleasure."

GIRLS ARE PRETTY:

Saturday, October 4, 2003

She's Locked In The Meat Locker Day!

If you're wondering where your girlfriend is, she's locked in that meat locker over there with the guy everyone thinks she should be with because there's no chemistry between the two of you. I'm sure nothing's going on inside there. I mean, yeah, they probably have to kind of cuddle together to keep warm, but I'm sure it means nothing to her. She's only doing it because she has no choice. Relax, she loves you. She could stay inside that meat locker with the guy everyone, including you, thinks is the right guy for her forever and it wouldn't make any difference. Your love is strong enough to conquer an undeniable need for the one she's supposed to be with.

Anyway, these two strong guys are gonna hold your arms and just make you stand there staring at the locked door for a couple hours. Your girlfriend and the guy she's supposed to be with are locked up in there.

Happy She's Locked In The Meat Locker Day!


Friday, October 3, 2003

Last In Line For Cookies Day!

Today, there are delicious cookies that come out of the oven piping hot. The boy in the front of the line gets the hottest, moistest, most wonderful cookie in the whole wide batch. The boy in the back of the line gets the shittiest cookie. Today, you are the boy in the back of the line. Today, you get the shittiest cookie, if you even get a cookie.

Happy Last In Line For Cookies Day!

lernu!

OtR | MP3 Rarity of the Month

8. Professional Daydreamer
Words: Bergquist/Detweiler
Music: Bergquist

Part of me
You are a part of me
I never want to lose
Hard for me
This is too hard
Maybe I can't get through
What will I miss the most
Pray that I'm haunted by your ghost

Listening
You're always listening
I don't know what to say
Why don't you turn and run at break-neck speed
Just to get away
And when you catch your breath
Pray I said every word I meant

Alright it's alright now
Alright it's alright

Broken down
We're all so broken down
Bandages on our wings
I know I don't have to tell you
Only broken hearts can sing
I'm hoping for a sign
Pray that I'm anything but fine

Some things are never gonna change
You ought to know by now

Honestly, OtR is at least 50% of what's keeping me alive these days. Good Lord.

10. Changes Come
Words: Bergquist/Detweiler
Music: Bergquist

Changes come
Turn my world around

I have my father's hand
I have my mother's tongue
I look for redemption in everyone

I wanna wear your ring
I have a song to sing
It ain't over babe
In fact it's just begun

Changes come
Turn my world around
Changes come
Bring the whole thing down

I wanna have our baby
Somedays I think that maybe
This ol' world's too fucked up
For any firstborn son

There is all this untouched beauty
The light the dark both running through me
Is there still redemption for anyone

Jesus come
Turn the world around
Lay my burden down
Turn this world around
Bring the whole thing down
Bring it down